Blasphemy, I know.

Title: All That Could Have Been
Characters: L
Rating: G

L is not. He is not this hunched stack of awkward limbs, crowned by shaggy black hair. He is not this sugar-addicted, wide-eyed freak who says too little in too many words and never sleeps. He is not this earnest, do-gooder investigator, forever devoted to upholding the archaic, useless laws of mankind.

L has never been sure what he is, but he knows what he should be the night he meets Yagami Light. And when Light stretches out his hand and L takes it, and Light says something pleasant and polite, L thinks-- he knows--

L thinks, 'I should have been Kira.'

Title: Even in Hell
Fandom: Death Note
Pairing: Mello/Matt
Rating: PG
Warnings: Angst

Summary: “Do you think there’s a special place in Hell for us? For good men who have done evil things in the name of justice?”

Notes: Ugh, so much angst. Sorry.

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Once more, with failing...

( ...and cat fights, and fires, and drinking problems... )

So instead of working on writing projects, I've been playing The Sims. I'm sure you can see where this is going.

First, let's meet the cast...

( A tale of hot dogs and infidelity... )

Meme explanation: Put your music player on shuffle and write a ficlet for the first ten songs that pop up. You cannot write the fic once the song is over, you only have that much time.

This post is rated R overall, though most of these are more like PG...

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Title: It Isn't (It Is)
Universe: Death Note
Characters: L/Near
Rating: PG (for vaguely implied chan)

Happy Birthday, Rabbit and Near!
Love,
Nishi and L

~*~*~

It's not love.

Not that he has any experience with that sort of thing, but he's sure he would know if that's what it was. Of course, love isn't something he can look up in a textbook and diagnose, the way one might for a cold or a heart attack-- not that loving Near would compare to a heart attack, or at least, L doesn't think it would. The point is, he wouldn't know, because it's not love.

No, what L feels when he watches the boy plop down in the middle of the room amidst the huge stacks of presents, and what he feels when Near looks up at him with wide, dark eyes, that isn't love.

It's...

Well, L isn't sure what it is, just like he's not sure what makes him want to smile down at Near and ruffle his hair. And he isn't sure why he does both of those things, or why he crouches down to watch over Near's shoulder while the boy tears the paper off one of the gift boxes.

So maybe...

L tips his head to one side, stares at Near, and thinks maybe he should stop thinking so much. Because even if it's not love, he likes it.

Whatever it is.

Every once in awhile, I get the urge to clean out my scraps folder and either finish the stories or delete them. Below the cut are a few things that started out really well, but that I either got tired of working on or had to abandon for other reasons. We'll call this post NC-17, overall, though the Gravitation and Final Fantasy scraps are more like PG or PG-13.

( Death Note )

( Final Fantasy )

( Gravitation )

( Loveless )

If I turn into a rabid Mello/Near shipper, blame thepinkrabbit.

Title: One or Many
Characters: Mello/Near
Rating: PG-13

It's been six months since Mello faked his own death and four years since the last time he kissed Near.

"How many people have you been with since--?" Near whispers against his lips, a shivering study of pink and white in Mello's arms.

"Too many," Mello murmurs. "I tried so hard to get you out of my head, and it was never enough."

Near sighs, sounding almost relieved, and closes his eyes.

"And you? How many people have you replaced me with?" Mello asks, kissing his way across a flushed cheek.

Near's eyes open, pupils dilated and eyelashes fluttering with every breath he takes. "None."

Title: Imaginary
Characters: Mello/Near
Rating: PG-13

Near is an echo of L's memory. It's in the slouch of his spine, the messy fall of hair over his eyes, the carefully neutral tone of his voice. Near is L's successor in almost every way.

But Near's kisses aren't L's kisses. There's not a trace of L in the pleading whimpers and quiet, breathy sighs. L would never be so passionate, so needy, so desperate for touch and warmth.

And that's when Mello has the upper hand, even if it's just for a few minutes. That's when Mello can smile against Near's mouth and think to himself, "I win."

Title: The Tell
Author: nishi_shinji
Universe: Death Note
Characters: Light/L
Rating: NC-17
Disclaimer: Sadly, they aren't mine.

Summary: You learn a lot about someone when you see them acting on a base instinct.

Author's Notes: My muse apparently loves this series. This story also contains spoilers.

( So tell me... )